Mateo Lara

“Winged-Man & His Stars”
For H

Stripped-down                        where              our holy spaces           filled with ants.
I’m ripe & thinking of the first time someone fucked me.

Blades supplemental hot-iron             wings silver-slicked     down my back
I’m hungering here      nested  in the backseat                        of his cobalt.

Soft clay forms       spot sticky with newness       so much newness white & impure
Not saintly      he tells me god does not exist             pay attention to the stars.
I’ll float & drift within his silver-slicked push—take & give.

I enter  his indifference            unwanted but satiated             we last three years
Before my flesh pulses with memory                        flying above & under him.

He talked about cosmic intent                        whatever the fuck that meant
Cosmic intent              super nova & its burst                        orange death/rebirth.
Black hole       sucking & fucking a galaxy      he studied chemistry in college
I studied          his eyebrows               how much he cried when we broke up
How much my mother            loved him        before she started loving me
& stars                        dead pulse       bright dead pulse         so much stars
In the sky        that god did not create                        that’s what the winged-man said
When he unfurled        his silver-slicked wings           to cover me
to cover           my       eyes.

Mateo Lara is from Bakersfield, California. He received his B.A. in English at CSU Bakersfield. He is currently working on his M.F.A. in Poetry at Randolph College in Lynchburg, VA. His poems have been featured in Orpheus, EOAGH, Empty Mirror, and The New Engagement. He is an editor for RabidOak online literary journal.

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